I have been working out now for about 3 months and it's been quite the journey. I never thought I would actually like going to the gym but today I can honestly say that I do! That is quite the accomplishment as just walking into the door of the gym a few months ago made my stomach do flip flops! I am so much stronger today than when I started and it feels so good.
I had a emotional moment at the gym a couple of weeks ago and it was a wonderful realization of the above for me. I was working out with my personal trainer doing weights on the bosu ball (that is a half ball that you balance on that is very interesting to say the least!) and it was getting pretty difficult. I had to really push myself to keep going and all of the sudden I felt these emotions welling up in me that came out of nowhere. At that moment all I wanted to do was cry and I really didn't understand why. I instantly thought of the people on the show The Biggest Loser and how you see them cry during their workouts sometimes and how I really always wondered why. Other than the fact that I know they are working really hard and sometimes it's painful, the tears never made too much sense to me. But then I'm not the most emotional person sometimes either and it could be just that for me. I didn't let the tears come to the surface and contrinued to push through the workout but it was in that moment that I came to the realization that I am truly a strong person and that I can do this!
I got in the car and cried those tears that I had pushed down and it was one good cry. For the first time in a long while I felt a inner strength in me to know that no matter what I face I can push through it. Whether it is working out or something personal. And the most important part of this all was knowing that I wasn't and will never have to do this by myself. I have God on my side and rooting me on the whole way and always has been. So they were good cleansing tears that I am so thankful to have let come to the surface and I walked away with so much more understanding and appreciation for our inner strength and how we can push through so much more than we let ourselves think we can.