What if?

That is a phrase that I have never really liked much because there is so much you can't know or control by saying it.  There is so much that can be left open in answering that question and so much uncertainity that it has always pretty much drove me crazy.  :)  There are questions that I don't mind dreaming about but being the concrete person that I am for the most part, I like to have a more direct questions and answers.  Ones that I can really see the outcome.  Or at least see happening rather than guessing "if" that could really happen.

Today I read Donald Miller's blog and it really challenged me to think of "what if" in a whole different light.  I loved it!  One of the phrases that stood out to me most in his blog was this...

"God gives life to you to live, and you can either tell meaningful stories or boring stories. We can’t wait around anymore for God to make something happen in our lives, meanwhile we shop at Bed Bath and Beyond. The truth is, God gives you wisdom and direction and morality and His presence and support, and then asks you to live, to conquer, to risk and experience the whole of life. People grow when they are in motion."

He challenged his readers to write down 5 things using the phrase "what if" and to pick one of them and actually follow through on one of them.  The whole part of following through with one of them has been on my mind all day.  I have honestly never let myself think this way and it was like God was opening up my heart to a new way of thinking.  I sat and thought of the things that I would write down and the things that are going on in our lives right now.  I feel like our lives are one big "what if" right now that we are living out.  It's cool to see that we had already walked through this in a way and were living out a big "what if"  For us that would be "what if we packed up all our belongings, put them in storage for a year, leave all of our friends and move 15 hours away to Missouri to where we have no work and Steve will go to school?"  Sounds pretty crazy huh?  But that is exactly what we are doing!  God made things so clear that this was what we are to do but there is still so much that we don't know but we are walking it out in faith.  And we are definately growing as we are in motion!  This is hard, especially right now with Steve not being here, but we are growing and experiencing and walking it out.  We are on a journey with a big "what if" and it's wonderful to know that God is in control even if we don't see it or know the outcome.  We are doing it and His hand it guiding our every step.  I will never see the big "what if" in the same way and for that I am thankful!